Last 4 weeks to End of 4th Semester

It is always so much easier to pick up bad habits, then to kick the habits away...
similarly, a good habits need much effort to sustain, and oftentimes they are forgotten...

so it is with writing blogs... a few minutes a day (compared with the time spent on FB)... to reflect and rethink of life (compared to tonnes of time spent without thinking on games).... to refocus and capture the precious moments (compared to the mindless goals in games and discussion forum)

As I read the book "The Road Less Traveled" by Scott Peck, I begin to realize that: YES, indeed, I need to go see a professional psychiatrist. Unfortunately, in Singapore the cost is too expensive, and my church friend who is able to provide me such service, would not be a right counsellor due to the closeness of our ministry. Perhaps, I can only rely on God for the moment :)

one of my life long friend: Roni, commented in my FB, that Suhandy never seemed to be happy. Always a reason to think, discuss, talk... and never really a moment to enjoy life, laugh and perhaps love... It was a real short comment, but it touches very deeply. Not in a hurting way, but in a deep thought-provoking manner. When was the last time I had a good laugh? When was the last time I can enjoy what I am doing, without worrying about things that I have not done?

It all boils down to my own life management. In SBC, I have many things that I have to do, out of obligation to the course. But my nature in doing things is not very correct and productive. I like to enjoy my time, my life, and procrastinate on those other matters. As I have little time left, I need to catch up with assignments, and thus have less time play and enjoy. It all because I started with the wrong step. I chose to enjoy first. IF I had chosen to 'work first' and 'enjoy later' then I will have fun and enjoyment without worries.

Last 4 weeks in 4th Semester, and here are my assignments:
1. Amos Synthetic Paper due today (4-5 pages)
2. Minor Prophets Exegetical Paper (10-12 pages)
3. NT Theology Paper - Pauline (10-12 pages)
4. NT Romans Exegetical Paper: Romans 3:21-28 (10-12 pages)
5. Systematic Theology: 2 position papers (3-5 pages each)
6. Systematic Theology: Research paper (10-12 pages)
7. NT Romans: Summary of Arguments on Romans (3 pages)
8. Hebrew 3 Quizzes and 1 Exam paper

All these are on top of about 100 pages at least that I need to read EVERYDAY... hmm...

This semester is nearing the end, and I can just try to make the best of the current situation. There is no backing out now, except to fully rely on God and really to focus on my studies. I pray that this semester will be a learning experience. I pray and hope that in the future, I will place my first step on : Duty first, so that I can Enjoy later... as the old indonesian proverb used to say: Berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, or the Chinese proverb: Bitter first, Sweet later..